Delving deeply into her dreams... and memories, poet Tania Skarynkina, born in 1969, in the small west Belarusian town of Smarhon, exposes the multicultural linguistic bonds of the Belarusian province. From the historical upheavals and ruptures of the Belarusian culture to dazzling worlds of literature and the film, Skarynkina looks for a future for Belarus.
August rain has unexpectedly replaced the July heat. I go out intentionally without an umbrella. After the hellish heat, the wetness is pleasant. Just in case, I’ll take the dust jacket that people used to call koshówez around here. You can tell from the stress on the penultimate syllable that it is a Polish word, and that’s not surprising, because our area used to be Poland. You can tell from the stress on the penultimate syllable that it is a Polish word, and that’s not surprising, because our area used to be Poland. ‘Polschtsch’ says the older generation. I don’t know why it’s called koshowez, because it is sewn from waterproof tarpaulin. Certainly not made of kosha leather.Maybe it's a very light coat (koshuch)? In the Polish dictionary I could not find kożowiec, even the Belarusian reveals no successful search. So probably a dialectal treasure from the past. St. Augustine, one of the first authors of early Christianity, writes in his Confessions that only the past exists, the future does not exist. Incidentally, neither does the present. There is only the present of the past and the future of the past. Augustine builds his entire understanding of human culture from this. I walk through the warm rain without an umbrella and think about it. I find it hard to agree. But I do usually trust Saint Augustine.
I reach the pond in the city centre of blooming water lilies. The surface of the leaf of the yellow-pond rose is supposed to be the level of future history, so while watching the raindrops I imagine how they press the leaf of the pond rose, as details that flow into the text every day and make it heavier. Lake roses also grow in the Perawosy Pond, the village where my mother was born. All of my maternal relatives up to the fourth generation, maybe even further back, lived there. They called the pond kutok –the bracket - and pond roses bulauka - drawing pins.
When the writer Dmitri Bykov asked the actor Konstantin Raikin what Kafka’s Metamorphosis was about, I was amazed. Does a well-known writer and television presenter not know - because the question was asked in the show SSL (Shalkaja samena literatury, Lousy Literary Substitute) – does he really have no answer to this question? He honestly insisted he didn't know, so Raikin gave an answer that made my blood run cold: ‘The worst thing is when you’re not needed but exist.’ I have post-apocalyptic dreams on this subject all the time; that aliens conquer us who transform into humans. Real people with their weaknesses and romantic feelings will no longer be needed in the future. Honestly, what should real people do in a non-existent, post-apocalyptic future?
We drive through the mountains in an open car. Up serpentine bends. Maybe to a sanatorium. A light wind blows carefree faces. One more curve and there is the sea. Suddenly, as always in a dream, everything happens suddenly, there is chaos on the street. The cars behave like a herd of wild cows.Any traffic rules, someone says, have been lifted. A truck drives past with soldiers sitting in rows. Something is wrong with their faces. The faces shine in the sun as if they were made of plastic. Made of grey plastic. There is a consistent expression of self-satisfaction on every face. Disgusted and stunned, I turn away, I realise: now it’s all over. We’re going back to town. The sea is forgotten. Our happy society suddenly falls apart. I walk through town alone. I watch, as ‘these’ – that’s what I quietly call the alien occupiers – scrutinise our girls and grin disgustingly and talk about the objects of their desires. When they feel the urge to copulate, they move with giant leaps, like grasshoppers, to a small house on the outskirts. Perhaps their staff sit there and they are consulting those in power regarding these unknown physical impulses. Because among ‘these’ there are no so-called women. Their workers nimbly spread disproportionately large rolls of man-made dirt over the sidewalks and lawns. Cinema was banned. On screens that have been installed in incredible numbers across the city, cartoons drawn by someone with a worm’s imagination and artistic skills are shown. Without music and language.The figures curve in strange rhythms over the screens, their eyes are empty, painted with black paint. I stand and look and almost vomit. One of ‘these’ says behind me:
I really have to vomit. Then our little society decides to flee… half a dozen opponents of the invasion who disagree. Into the desert. Dressed like Bedouins. Let’s flee to Africa.